When I was a little girl, I used to ask a lot of questions to the adults that I met. I loved to eavesdrop on their conversations and just to learn about things. I used to ask a lot of WHYs and HOWs.
When I became an adult and learned that I can have a relationship this tight with God, I never asked Him the question WHY (in a rude manner that is. However, He knew, and always knows, that at the back of my head, the WHYs are there. For me, it’s like questioning His limitless wisdom whenever I dare to ask Him. I just trust that He knows what He is doing and that He has a reason and purpose behind every thing. I think that’s what you call FAITH. Even if you can’t quite understand it, you’re just certain that He is working things for your own good.
While contemplating on the things that transpired this month of November, I realized two words – TWO YEARS. It’s been two years since we found out about my Mama’s rectal cancer (July 2010) and it’s been two years since I had the notion to go to Israel (October 2010).
My departure date from Tel Aviv was on the 17th of November 2012. I received a call from my brother about my Mama nearing her last breath in the hospital on the 16th of November. A day before my flight back home.
I didn’t actually ask God why but even before I thought about the purpose and reason behind His timing – He revealed the answers to my secret WHYs.
To be continued…